Monday, December 31, 2012

Renewed Hope And A New Beginning

With the new year Finally here we are, or atleast I am left to review the year that has left me, making me realise that I have real soul searching to do!!
None of you may be interested in reading what I have to say or state but then again the whole blog is dedicated to Useless Stuff that may or may not link to what happens in my life personally or to reflect on how my life may or may not have become Useless!!
Every year we have such high hopes of a better beginning, a fresh start for some or to seek a moment of inspiration that we weren't able to find the previous year!!
Last year was not that bright or inspiring for me to talk about..........
I guess i have nothing more to say so turning to the reflective side of the post!!
I met a lot of new People, almost all of them were so sweet and co-operative but  am extremely curious to know what people that I met thought of me!!!
If I meet new people then definately they meet the new refined me and we both don't know a single thing about one another!!
We can either be extremely good friends or companions!!
Even be as Close as a Brother!!
We could just not make it across the line, not knowing the reason for the feeling but knowing for sure that no matter how hard we would try the relation or a feeling of warmth would just not be there!!
There is NO third option!!
Makes me wonder If there is a Third option in Life!!
We are not certain..
And yet in life we always search for the third option!!
A safer side!!
And do we end up in trouble!!
I most definately do!!
Makes me wonder even more about the third option and all i get in my head is that i does not exist, but my heart differs, again not knowing the feeling it does!!
There is life and then there is death!!
According to what humans can imagine, think and precieve we are certain that there are only two Conditions!!
Either you are Alive or you are Dead!!
If there is any other state only God knows about it!!
Which makes me wonder if we Don't know about the third option Does God want us to find it or Is He trying to say that Only he is capable of Juggling between the options!!
I always try to keep a balance in whatever I intend to do!!
Only to be considered a Good personal with a good moral and upbringing!!
But what if such a thing does not exist!!
Have always felt that I have been loosing when i was certain in my head of my success!!
What if this is God's way of telling me that you have chosen the wrong path, the wrong way!!
Making me believe that I can be either outwardly positive or be negative and let the whole world see the person I am!!
What if after all the feeling of loss and depressiveness God has Success lined up for me!!
There is also a Dialogue from a Film of SRK (the only hero that i follow that closely) that "Haar kar jeetnay walay ko bazigar kehtay hain"
Am I destined to be a Bazigar or like any Hero for that matter that keeps getting beaten and bruised and faces all the hardships but in the end is the happiest of the lot!!
Would the happiness be worth all the hardships faced!!
I certainly hope so!!
Is it true that its not the end yet and someone saying to me
"Picture abhee baqi hai meray dost"
This thought makes me move forward and makes me intend to keep the path I have taken!!
Following the heart and searching for a third option even if it means more uncertainty and tumult even in the long run!!
Praying deep in my heart that everything turns out better than I ever plan or can preceive!!
I guess that is the spirit that the new year brings!!
One day you are feeling beaten to the ground and you still manage to beat all the bad guys, all the problems!!
A feeling of RENEWED HOPE and the prospect of a NEW BEGINNING and a better life!!

Tuesday, June 19, 2012

If I was to become the President of Pakistan

A Million thoughts surround my mind as to what I would do when I would be in-charge of the seat!!
Well firstly I would thank the public that they trusted and believed in me that I was worthy of the seat and that they wont do the same mistake of trusting me and believing in me, and that I would assure them would be a promise from my side!
I expect the first few days to be extremely busy, taking oath, dealing with the press and putting up a mask to fool the general public, making them believe for the slightest moment that the choice they made was a good one and that me taking the oath would start about a revolution for the betterment of the country!
Keeping the mask on I would openly invite the other leaders be it in the opposition or the government to be on friendly terms and establish my image as the one who truly cares and would go the max length possible for the better future of the country!!
I would make a lot of fake promises to the public and in front of the media, a strategic move because by now the media and the people would start trusting me blindly!!
Now I would relax a little, enjoying the luxuries that I once dreamt of, I always had this fantasy of turning on all the lights in the house and not having to worry at all!!
When I would do that as a child my parents responded :"Haraam ka maal hai??"
I wish my father was alive but I dearly hope that my mother sees the day I respond :"Awaam ka maal hai" Im unsure what the reaction of my mother would be but for me that would be a perfect reply to the question that they asked me as a child!!
A leap forward of two years would suggest that no progress was made, then i would play the blame game, blame it on the one who was previously in charge, going by the trend the people would still somehow believe me and a year would pass peacefully!!
In the final year i would think and i am sure of it that i can no longer put the mask on and in my head i would think in dexter's tone that the mask indeed was heavy, now people will see the real, corrupt and evil me, making the people pay for trusting and believing in me, now with the real me in the open, people would realize that I in actual damn care about the country, realizing that all I ever cared was of my luxury, my life and nothing else!!
People would protest and I would punish them by not giving them any electricity and make them experience a trailer of Hell, I would be untouchable because I would be the president, and no one could do any harm to me so why should I have to worry!!
While the people would protest, I would think that how foolish of them to react like cry babies, as If their protests actually matter to me!!
I would be what Michael Corleone was in Godfather II, having the power to do whatever i want to, no restrictions and no accountabilty!!
In a way I would be living the perfect life for atleast the five years, as the country's history suggests!!
Even after that I would sit idle and reflect on the great time I had being the president of Pakistan and continuing the trend that the earlier leaders set!!