Monday, December 31, 2012

Renewed Hope And A New Beginning

With the new year Finally here we are, or atleast I am left to review the year that has left me, making me realise that I have real soul searching to do!!
None of you may be interested in reading what I have to say or state but then again the whole blog is dedicated to Useless Stuff that may or may not link to what happens in my life personally or to reflect on how my life may or may not have become Useless!!
Every year we have such high hopes of a better beginning, a fresh start for some or to seek a moment of inspiration that we weren't able to find the previous year!!
Last year was not that bright or inspiring for me to talk about..........
I guess i have nothing more to say so turning to the reflective side of the post!!
I met a lot of new People, almost all of them were so sweet and co-operative but  am extremely curious to know what people that I met thought of me!!!
If I meet new people then definately they meet the new refined me and we both don't know a single thing about one another!!
We can either be extremely good friends or companions!!
Even be as Close as a Brother!!
We could just not make it across the line, not knowing the reason for the feeling but knowing for sure that no matter how hard we would try the relation or a feeling of warmth would just not be there!!
There is NO third option!!
Makes me wonder If there is a Third option in Life!!
We are not certain..
And yet in life we always search for the third option!!
A safer side!!
And do we end up in trouble!!
I most definately do!!
Makes me wonder even more about the third option and all i get in my head is that i does not exist, but my heart differs, again not knowing the feeling it does!!
There is life and then there is death!!
According to what humans can imagine, think and precieve we are certain that there are only two Conditions!!
Either you are Alive or you are Dead!!
If there is any other state only God knows about it!!
Which makes me wonder if we Don't know about the third option Does God want us to find it or Is He trying to say that Only he is capable of Juggling between the options!!
I always try to keep a balance in whatever I intend to do!!
Only to be considered a Good personal with a good moral and upbringing!!
But what if such a thing does not exist!!
Have always felt that I have been loosing when i was certain in my head of my success!!
What if this is God's way of telling me that you have chosen the wrong path, the wrong way!!
Making me believe that I can be either outwardly positive or be negative and let the whole world see the person I am!!
What if after all the feeling of loss and depressiveness God has Success lined up for me!!
There is also a Dialogue from a Film of SRK (the only hero that i follow that closely) that "Haar kar jeetnay walay ko bazigar kehtay hain"
Am I destined to be a Bazigar or like any Hero for that matter that keeps getting beaten and bruised and faces all the hardships but in the end is the happiest of the lot!!
Would the happiness be worth all the hardships faced!!
I certainly hope so!!
Is it true that its not the end yet and someone saying to me
"Picture abhee baqi hai meray dost"
This thought makes me move forward and makes me intend to keep the path I have taken!!
Following the heart and searching for a third option even if it means more uncertainty and tumult even in the long run!!
Praying deep in my heart that everything turns out better than I ever plan or can preceive!!
I guess that is the spirit that the new year brings!!
One day you are feeling beaten to the ground and you still manage to beat all the bad guys, all the problems!!
A feeling of RENEWED HOPE and the prospect of a NEW BEGINNING and a better life!!